We have officially began our 7Th year journey. (Click here for details if you missed my post last week). Designating time for my own personal spiritual growth is always my desire but not always my reality. My heart longs to sit at His feet, but living in a small home filled with young energetic children and ministry demands sometimes quenches hope for peace and quiet. Now I don’t have an excuse. I’m committed to blog about my experience and I’m sharing it with good trusted friends. Kathi, Missy, Pam and I won’t be meeting in person each week, but we’ll be in touch and when schedules allow, getting together for coffee. We are peers in ministry and I’m excited to discover more about Jesus and my friends as we take this journey together. Perhaps I’ll even get them to contribute some posts now and then.
The Time Line – Week One
I’ll admit, I was a little intimidated by this weeks exercise. I’m not very crafty or organized and didn’t know how much time it would take. I wasn’t completely sure what tracing paper was, but thankfully it was easy to find and on sale at the craft store. In this exercise we were to draw a timeline and mark dates that the government or insurance companies would be aware of. Marriages, deaths, divorces, births, etc. I don’t know where this is going, but already I’m seeing the sovereign hand of God at work.
I was amazed by how few things I had to mark on my timeline. I’ll be 39 years old this summer. I’ve only lived in three towns my entire life, my parents never divorced, and I’ve held very few jobs. In August my husband and I will celebrate 20 years of marriage, meaning I’ll have been married more than half of my life. All in all it’s been a very stable existence for me. There was the death of my Mom in 2005, which still pains me, but for the most part life has been steady except for those normal bumps most of us go through.
Isaiah 61:11 has been a theme verse for me the past several months.
11 “For as the soil makes the sprout come up
and a garden causes seeds to grow,
so the Sovereign LORD will make righteousness
and praise spring up before all nations.”
The sovereignty of God blows my mind. This past summer I saw it at work in a powerful way as my husband and I ended up managing a camp that is very significant to us both. It is where I met Jesus and Greg. We got engaged and married at this camp and spent many summers working there. After the birth of our son (who was conceived at camp 🙂 ) we didn’t return to work there until this past summer (12 years later).
I don’t know how God does it. How does He work His plan in our lives? Where does the sovereignty of God end and our free will begin? It’s a constant mystery to me. There is tension in the two, but for now I’m at rest knowing that it’s nearly impossible for me to mess up the good plans He has in store. Looking at my timeline is affirmation of this truth to me. I know there will be trials and tribulations before my life is completed, but I fully trust my Father will work his good, loving, kind, and sovereign plan into it all.